My Diary

12/26/XXXX

Oh. Em. Gee. This month has been WILD... So... Dad broke my computer. I can't believe him. He went through my files and found my diary. Mom found out about him cheating and he blamed me for ALL OF IT and broke my freaking computer. Smashed it on the ground. Mom went CRAY. They were both screaming, even [REDACTED] looked scared. He was crying, so was I. I begged Mom to let me stay with Ricky for a couple days. She must've felt bad (for once) and let me. It was the best few days of my life! Her mom let me use her computer so Ricky and I could play games together. Even though my computer was gone, my game logins were still there :3 We watched shows together and she showed me new animes and we hung out in a fort we made allll weekend o(^▽^)o And her mom is so nice. Her dad isn't around but Ricky doesn't seem to mind. She never really knew him. I'm lucky to have a friend like Ricky. I had to go home eventually, but I wish I never had to leave. When I got back, dad was gone and Mom was...Nice??? She actually paid attention to me...It was weird. It's died down now but...Still... I asked her where dad went and she said he wouldn't be around anymore. That feels even weirder. He isn't at dinner, he isn't at church...but Mom isn't praying as hard. Or crying as much. I can't help but wonder if it's a good thing. I know divorce is a bad thing. At least, that's what Mom and dad have always said. I hope they don't go to hell for it. I want them to fucking burn. But mom got me a new computer for Christmas. That's...crazy... :\ she never is nice to me like wtf...I guess she did owe me one. Even though I didn't really do anything. But I was gonna tell her! Really, I was. At least now I have one less crazy parent to worry about. I was sick of him hurting me. Even my angel was afraid.

1/6/XXXX

Halooooo <(0-0)> Finally back in school. This sucks. But at least I get to see my friends. And that asshole John. I can't stand him. Do you like me or not?! MAKE UP YOUR MIND!!! I'm still kind of dealing with the stress of everything happening at home. Ricky and I snuck to the music room during recess. She played me a song on the piano. It was nice. Mom has still been acting weird. She's kind of obsessed with me now and is all up in my business. But at night, I can hear her crying. She keeps leaving wine bottles out and doesn't get up early enough to make breakfast or take me to the bus stop. But we still go to church every Sunday. She acts perfectly fine. It's weird how mom and dad always act like that and tell me to be myself. They don't even like "myself."